My Confession

Do you remember when I stared writing the blog again? I told you about some things that had been going on; Dave had to have treatments for his cancer, my dear friend, Pat had surgery for cancer, another dear friend Jason, had an accident when a 5,000 pound safe fell on his leg, and I had surgery. Things have gotten some better, we are waiting on results from tests for Dave's cancer, and prayerfully we will get the results this week on Dave.


The one that I am writing about is my surgery I had in October. Everything went great, it was a successful surgery and so far nothing has gone wrong. I prayed about this surgery as I didn't really want to have it but after praying about it for sometime the Lord God told me everything was going to be fine and there was nothing to worry about, after all isn't worry the lack of faith? I wished that I could say everything went fine after that but I can't. I still didn't want the surgery so in my small mind that it is :( I got myself to thinking, if something would happen to my foot or something I wouldn't have to go through with the surgery as then I would have something else bothering me.

You know, the Lord already knew I didn't want to have the surgery so why didn't I just talk to him about it and ask Him what to do? He was there to talk to me and help me out through this but no, I didn't talk to him I just thought I had figured away to keep from having the surgery. What an injustice I did to the Lord and myself?

You see, even though I didn't pray for something to happen I did suggest it and I truly believe Satan jumped at the change to have a field day with me. I Peter 5:8; ...because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour": We should never allow something to catch the eye of him that wants to destroy us and this is what I did.

I have spent the biggest part of the last two weeks in bed trying to keep the swelling and pain down in my foot and leg. I went to the doctor after I got home from the hospital and he said it was Cellulites so he treated me for this. I was allergic to the medicine he gave me so there was another hurdle to get over. I finally went to my family care doctor and she said she thought physical therapy might help, that isn't working, and the swelling and pain got so bad that I had to stop that. The doctor finally decided to do blood work so now we are waiting for the results of this. She thinks it might be Gout (oh, to me that sounds like such a dirty name) but is afraid Cellulites might set in.

What I am getting at here is I should have taken the concern of not wanting to have the surgery to God, He had told me everything would be fine and I believed Him and knew the surgery would go well I just didn't want to have it. The surgery would save me some pain and discomfort after it was over and in the long run I would be much better off. Don't take just part of your problems and concerns to the Lord, take them all to Him. God knows all about what is bothering us and He waits for us to go to Him. If I had done this in the first place He would have helped me through this feeling and given me peace and comfort. I Peter 5:7; "Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you". In that verse it says ALL your care upon Him not just one or two cares but ALL. I didn't do this so I have caused myself undue pain, no one else has caused it and I opened up the door for Satan to jump right in.

If you have any cares, concerns, or troubles please take them ALL to the Lord not just part of them as I have done. God is waiting for you to do this just as He was waiting for me to take them all to Him but I didn't do it.

This is my confession of what I should have done and what I did. This is very embarrassing for me as I knew better than to take just part of my cares to the Lord but should it help anyone that may have a similar problem, it is worth the embarrassment. I have asked the Lord to forgive me for this and I know that He has but there are consequences to pay for my act. There is no way to undo the fact that I didn't go to the Lord with all my concerns but I know I have learned that stopping in the middle is not the thing to do.

May you always know the love, joy, and peace of the Lord!

I Am Angry

It is this time of the year I become angry. Why? After all this is the time to be happy and joyous and I am in my heart.


The thing that makes me angry is it seems people want to take Jesus out of CHRISTmas. Why are they doing this? They don't want to offend anyone, well, I am offended that they do this but that doesn't seem to matter.

They say Jesus wasn't born December 25th but this is the day that has been chosen to celebrate His Birthday. The first time I heard that December 25th wasn't really Jesus' birth date I had a lot of trouble with it but does it really matter? Shouldn't we treat each day as the birthday of Jesus Christ? Luke 2:11; "For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord". Shouldn't we just be thankful to God and give Him our praises that He loved the world so much that He sent a Saviour? I think so.

When I was growing up and when my kids were growing up and even when my grandchildren were really young everyone wished everyone a "Merry Christmas" but now they say happy holidays. The stores, all kinds of stores, want our business and make their ads enticing so that we will go in. They have things on sale so that we can't pass it up. I wonder what they would do if we Christians refused to shop unless they put Jesus back in Christmas. I think they would probably beg us to give them another chance, I would hope so anyway.

The government doesn't even call it Christmas break anymore they call it a winter break. Just like for Easter they call it spring break. The schools do the same thing. What is wrong with people anyway?

For Halloween the stores don't mind having witches and evil things put up in the stores but they just can't bring themselves to have things about Jesus in the stores.

The TV stations want us to watch their channel and they won't say Merry Christmas but happy holidays. They don't want to offend anyone. I would rather offend them than I would my Lord and Saviour. I don't want Him to be ashamed of me but the people, if they want to be ashamed of me because of Jesus so be it.

Mark 8:38; "Whosoever therefore shall be ashamed of me and my words in this adulterous and sinful generation; of him also shall the Son of man be ashamed, when he cometh in glory of his Father with the holy angels". Are we going to seek to be popular or to be accepted by the ones that is trying to take Jesus out of everything or are we going to follow Him and be proud of who we are in the Lord Jesus Christ? I want to follow Jesus and be so very proud of whom I am in Him.

I for one am refusing to say anything but "Merry Christmas". I will show my love for the Lord in anyway that I can, if someone doesn't like it well that is the way it goes.

Thanks for letting me voice my opinion on what people are not doing for our Lord.

May you always know the love, joy, and peace of the Lord!

Salvation Is Forgiveness

Romans 3:23; "For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God"; There was only one Person that did not sin and that was Jesus Christ. The rest of us are sinners and there is one way and only one way to be cleansed of our sins and that is through the Son, Jesus Christ.


Our salvation is through the forgiveness of sins, without forgiveness there is no salvation. We have to acknowledge our sin to Jesus and ask for forgiveness. Psalm 51:3; "For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me". Our sin is continually in front of us and we need to go to God and ask Him for His forgiveness, sometimes this isn't always easy as it seems our sin is a terrible thing, after all we have sinned against God.

Acts 3:19; "Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord". When we go to the Lord asking for forgiveness we can be sure that He will forgive us.

II Corinthians 5:17; "Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new". After being forgiven for our sins we are to walk in our new life, sinning no more. This is much easier than what a person may think; after all we have Jesus and the Holy Spirit to help us.

Romans 12:2; "And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect will of God". We must proclaim the truths and righteous standards of the Word of God as well as want to do the will of God and forsake the ways of the world and Satan. We need to conform to God's way of thinking. We need our mind on God at all times.

What are the joys of our salvation? We now have Jesus with us, He left us a comforter, the Holy Spirit, we have the presence of the Lord with us, He is with us always, we know should we slip and sin all we have to do is ask for forgiveness and know that God will forgive us, we are able to talk with the Lord, we can call on the Him at all times (night or day), we have happiness, we have the love of the Lord at all times, walking in love towards all, and we have a forever home in heaven waiting for us where there will be no tears, no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain, there will only be joy and happiness, and it is where the Lord is, we will be with Him. We are able to share our experiences of salvation with others and count on winning lost souls for the Lord. Salvation truly is JOY! Perhaps you have some other thoughts you would like to share with us, I encourage you to do so in the 'Comment Box'. All of us would love to hear from you.

May you always know the love, joy, and peace of the Lord!